Having a Spirit pizza party

I am blogging about my 40-day abundance journey using the Prosperity Principles in “The Abundance Book” by John Randolph Price.

Day 20

I keep my mind and thoughts off “this world” and I place my entire focus on God within as the only Cause of my prosperity. I acknowledge the Inner Presence as the only activity in my financial affairs, as the substance of all things visible. I place my faith in the Principle of Abundance in action within me. 

I have been in and out of this journey over the past few days, but came back this morning and focused on Principle 10, even though I technically should be back at Principle 1. There was something important for me to get from this, so I settled in and really concentrated on the notion that Spirit within creates opportunities for prosperity. Like on day 10, I don’t accept that Spirit causes prosperity outright, but instead is constantly finding opportunities for prosperity to arrive in my life, provided I let them in. 

After meditation I trolled my Instagram feed and saw this post from Elizabeth Gilbert, the author of “Big Magic” and “Eat, Pray, Love,” and it could not be apter:Screen Shot 2017-04-11 at 7.57.06 AM

I am all for eating pizza and drinking wine and taking naps and dog selfies, and I know this was tongue in cheek, but I want to work for my money. I want to take opportunities that make me uncomfortable, to push through my fears and to create something that I can be proud of. And the money will follow. I think Spirit throws balls of opportunity into the air and my role is to be at ease enough to catch them. These opportunities may take the form of a conversation with a stranger on the 2 train over a bracelet made in Niger. They may take the form of a friend from way back, offering bags of vintage clothes right before I’m about to have a big trunk sale. They may be distant connections helping me find people to interview for a research job. All of these things are uplifting but all of them required some effort on my part. If I hadn’t spoken to the man on the train, if I didn’t make time for a 50-minute subway ride out to Brooklyn, if I didn’t ask for help from people I don’t know very well, none of these things would be real. And that is what makes me feel prosperous. I can feel opportunities building on each other, getting bigger and that is awesome. I don’t want to sit back and eat pizza unless the pizza comes afterward, as a reward for doing the work that Spirit put in front of me to do.

Getting to work (after I make toast)

I am blogging about my 40-day abundance journey using the Prosperity Principles in “The Abundance Book” by John Randolph Price.

Day 16

My inner supply instantly and constantly takes on form and experience based on my needs and desires, and as the Principle of Supply in action, it is impossible for me to have any needs or unfulfilled desires. 

When I meditated on this Principle 10 days ago, I focused on an ingrained behavior pattern of going shopping after work, not because I need anything, but because I wanted to avoid going home. Home was often a lonely place, filled with landmines and it was easier to pass time among agnostic things to buy than face the work that needed doing behind my front door. I didn’t publish what I wrote because my post took on a life of its own and became more about the circumstances of my first marriage than about the abundance journey.

Revisiting the principles several times allows for different interpretations, which I am grateful for. I am struggling with the journey right now, feeling like I am going in and out of awareness and ease. I’m eating too much and allowing myself to be distracted from the work that needs doing. And that is it, really. I am allowing myself to be distracted from the work that needs doing — I might as well be shopping at TJ Maxx right now.

I just brought in my first big user research job and I am proud of myself. It is a big deal for me to step out into a solo career, doing something new and be able to bring in work that I am excited to do. But now I am scared. I have a lot that I promised and have to deliver on and instead of rolling up my sleeves and getting to it, I am eating bread and allowing myself to drift. So afraid of a big job, I disappear into myself. I have done this all my life. So in a way, the Principle is delivering — it is taking on a form (distractions) based on my desire to be distracted. Why did I think that Spirit would bring what I really need, not necessarily what I am saying I need? That Spirit would see through my bargaining and deliver what She knows I really want deep down? The deal is I do my part and Spirit will do her part. I work and God works. It isn’t passive and Spirit isn’t Yoda, giving me a stern talking to when I want to give up.

The minute I get to work, Spirit will be there with me, feeding me source energy. But I have to get to work.

 

What if it isn’t pretty?

I am blogging about my 40-day abundance journey using the Prosperity Principles in “The Abundance Book” by John Randolph Price.

Day 15

Money is not my supply. No person, place or condition is my supply. My awareness, knowledge, and understanding of the all-providing activity of the Divine Mind within me is my supply. My consciousness of this truth is unlimited, therefore my supply is unlimited. 

There may be circumstances that make people, places or conditions seem like the source of abundance, but they, as independent entities, are not my supply. I feel abundant in the times when I am vibing with people, in beautiful nature or experiencing something wonderful, I am more likely to open my heart and be harmonious with Spirit. That allows abundance to flow freely and everything to become elevated. The challenge is to open myself to Spirit when I am in chilly gray New York City, working from home when everyone else is at an office, unmotivated to leave my apartment but also unmotivated to read my cards or meditate or move. I am blocking the flow, blocking the ease with my feelings of unease. I don’t doubt that the supply is unlimited, but I am having difficulty letting it guide me when my circumstances aren’t uplifting. That’s the work, yes?

Three days and a skip

I am blogging about my 40-day abundance journey using the Prosperity Principles in “The Abundance Book” by John Randolph Price.

Day 11

God is lavish, unfailing abundance, the rich omnipresent substance of the universe. This all-providing source of infinite prosperity is individualized as me – the reality of me. 

Have you ever done an image search on “cosmos”? I did after meditating on today’s Principle and the results made me smile. I have a new respect for the guys who painted stars and swirling bits of constellations and perfect planets on the sides of their vans.

The substance of the universe are these swirling bits, and one the rare nights I have seen the Milkey Way, I’ve seen it. This substance is what makes up blades of grass and water droplets and crow’s feathers and me. We truly are all one, tied together by the cosmic substance that makes up the universe and everything in it.

Day 12

I lift up my mind and heart to be aware, to understand, and to know that the divine presence I am is the source and substance of all my good. 

I focused on the physicality of lifting my mind and heart yesterday. It is true that this work makes me feel expansive, with my chest actively opening up when I breathe in God. The act of lifting up, my eyes, my thoughts, my chest, makes things seem much clearer. I can see how awareness and understanding come out of this clarity.

I practiced this while riding the subway today and I could swear I saw farther down the car than is possible. Everything was perfectly clear and I saw people shine from the top of their heads. It was a far cry from the days when I shuddered to enter a train and felt hemmed in by bodies and souls each time I rode one.

Day 13

 I am conscious of the inner presence as my lavish abundance. I am conscious of the constant activity of this mind of infinite prosperity. Therefore, my consciousness is filled with the light of truth. 

Day 14

Through my consciousness of my God-self, the Christ within, as my source, I draw into my mind and feeling nature the very substance of Spirit. This substance is my supply, thus my consciousness of the presence of God within me is my supply.

After reading this a few times, I decided I could shorten it to “My consciousness of God within is my supply,” which makes for an easier statement to meditate on.

Yesterday I didn’t have a good afternoon or evening. I felt overwhelmed by the amount of things I had to do but had procrastinated throughout the day rather than being efficient and just getting on with it. I also ate sugar in the afternoon (Trader Joe’s fig bars) and the subsequent crash left me feeling empty and blasé. It felt like I put a heavy, wet blanket on God’s constant activity and the stillness left me feeling dislocated and lost. I was floating in gray aspic. I didn’t like it at all.

I haven’t been giving these meditations the attention they need over the last few days and I think that was the biggest contributor to my darkness. Like with the marathon training, I have to do my part so God can do his/hers. I have to do this work with clear eyes and a full heart, otherwise, it will be a blip in my life. I do not want that.

Perpetual cheese, perpetual money

I am blogging about my 40-day abundance journey using the Prosperity Principles in “The Abundance Book” by John Randolph Price.

Day 10

I keep my mind and thoughts off “this world” and I place my entire focus on God within as the only Cause of my prosperity. I acknowledge the Inner Presence as the only activity in my financial affairs, as the substance of all things visible. I place my faith in the Principle of Abundance in action within me. 

I would like to change “Cause” to “Source in this Principle. I don’t read “cause” as an impetus, a beginning or a source, but instead as a result or an outcome. For example, the Grand Canyon was formed (caused) by the Colorado River (source). God within is the source of my prosperity. That seemed important for me to clarify. Not sure why…

When thinking specifically about finances, I don’t want to place too much emphasis on the actual money part. I trust that the source of money is within, and it is my responsibility to be open to opportunities to give and receive it. I want to be active in my own prosperity, not feel like God is the only cause, the only reason, I am prosperous.

Revisiting the analogy from Day 2 and 3, God is the cheese station that automatically provides all I could ever want, whenever I want it. God doesn’t cause the cheese to appear (he isn’t the caterer), God is the cheese, always. The cheese is perpetual. The money is perpetual. It is up to me to be open to the cheese, to recognize that the cheese is there, to take the cheese and share the cheese and trust that the cheese will be there tomorrow and the next day, whenever I want it. The money is perpetual. The money is there to take and share, whenever I want it. God within is the source of that money.

These last 10 days have been challenging. The Principles are challenging in their audacity and I have been surprised at the feelings they have brought up. I still have some blockages, as today’s post shows in clear light. Tomorrow I start over with Principle #1 and go through the process again. It will be interesting to see if I feel differently.

I will say that the work has already had an effect on me. A few days ago, I was told that I couldn’t hold an event at the venue I had my heart set on and made the conscious choice to open my heart to other venues. I simply asked for the right place to present itself to me, and yesterday, it did. Interestingly, it came as a result of another choice I made, this one to shake off disappointment and stay open instead of shutting down. I wound up having a wonderful birthday because I dropped my expectations of what I wanted it to be and just let it be what it was. Turns out, I had more fun, more surprising and uplifting conversations, more connection with people and more love than I had had in years. It felt abundant and I am so grateful.